I hate crying, it's bcoz crying makes me feel like I'm so useless, cry for a tiny thing,, make me feel like I'm too girlish, can't be stronger.
But then I cried a lot for this half year, I dunno y, juz like the tears flowing out, heart like cut by knife.
It's after skul exam, I should be happy, n I AM happy , but when I think of next year, I feel scare,
I dun hav much frenz in arts class, n I'm not bear to leave science class, I'm not ready, not ever! I like science class a lot , but I dun like it when it faces exam or report card day.
Changing to art class is equal to be an ostrich, running away from the realistic. Comparing me wif my sis is not I want, coz I know we r different person n can't be compared. I have my own talent, but I can't find it. My confident flew away adi for a long time ago, if not wrong , it'd been five years.
Maybe I want to hav a perfect plan of my study, n tat's why I had been so confusing. Question marks never less in my mind, my questions can be many, but no one can answer it even myself.
Helpless is a feeling I dun wanna admit, coz I think it represent to be my weakness.
Even though I dun like to cry, but every time I talk my problem wif my physic teacher , I would definitely cry, not bcoz she scold me, she din scold me but in the other way, she talked to me softly, so warm, I thanks her very much ! I'm facing the diverged road now, what to do? Choose the one I like the most? Choose the one I can handle? Or choose the last card?
No comments:
Post a Comment