最后的牌。。。

不管我有多少张牌在手上，最后还是必须选择那早已预定在手上的牌不是吗？

就算我想要选择不同的牌，可最后，落在手中的，还是这张早就被固定的牌，不能被改变。

常常隐瞒都被误解成不重视，可是不隐瞒能怎样？就算说了，手中的底牌能改变吗？

方块能变成心形吗？曾经看了一部电影，觉得里面的女主角好笨，不过

现在好像有点了解她的感觉了。

回想与大家一起的日子，才真的觉得时间飞逝，能不能让时间慢下来，最好还停下来不要走，

至少，能与真的认为的好朋友，一起度过快乐的一天。

我一直很谢谢一位朋友，她给予的帮助，是多过很多人的，她很聪明，也很厉害。虽然她每次没做功课都到学校来抄，不过她拿的分数永远都比我高。。。。。说没不爽，是假的，谁会高兴啊！！！！过分！！！可每次这样说说一下之后，又忘了~~~~

不仅如此，还有一位老师，被我称为催泪师，她催泪的技术，简直一流啊！她很善良，很友善，

虽然她给予的帮助不是课业上的，不过心灵上却给了无数的安慰与鼓励。与她说话，我的眼泪就会飚出来，她应该是在我上了中学之后第一也是唯一一个看过我泪流满面的老师。她不会被我归类在老师圈里，而是在朋友圈里，就连我朋友，也应该没有一个看过我泪流满面的样子吧？呵呵~~~

Diverged roads......

I hate crying, but still I cry frequently. Especially this year, my tears like raining can't stop, heart bleeding.....

I hate crying, it's bcoz crying makes me feel like I'm so useless, cry for a tiny thing,, make me feel like I'm too girlish, can't be stronger.

But then I cried a lot for this half year, I dunno y, juz like the tears flowing out, heart like cut by knife.

It's after skul exam, I should be happy, n I AM happy , but when I think of next year, I feel scare,

I dun hav much frenz in arts class, n I'm not bear to leave science class, I'm not ready, not ever! I like science class a lot , but I dun like it when it faces exam or report card day.

Changing to art class is equal to be an ostrich, running away from the realistic. Comparing me wif my sis is not I want, coz I know we r different person n can't be compared. I have my own talent, but I can't find it. My confident flew away adi for a long time ago, if not wrong , it'd been five years.

Maybe I want to hav a perfect plan of my study, n tat's why I had been so confusing. Question marks never less in my mind, my questions can be many, but no one can answer it even myself.

Helpless is a feeling I dun wanna admit, coz I think it represent to be my weakness.

Even though I dun like to cry, but every time I talk my problem wif my physic teacher , I would definitely cry, not bcoz she scold me, she din scold me but in the other way, she talked to me softly, so warm, I thanks her very much ! I'm facing the diverged road now, what to do? Choose the one I like the most? Choose the one I can handle? Or choose the last card?

选择。。。。

真的，没退路了，真的，转科了，真的，坚持不了了。

虽然说，我很爱这班，可是为了我的文凭，为了我的未来，我只好，放弃理科了。

应该不能说放弃，应该说，向一个更适合我的科系前进。 之前的一星期考虑其实根本就不足够，考虑需要的是时间，可是，短短的一星期，怎么考虑？可是既然我做了选择，我就不会再回头看。毕竟，再望也改变不了事实。往后我所要从事的行业，都跟理科没关系。既然如此，我又何必苦苦追求那理科呢？还倒不如去选个跟未来的自己有关系的科系。

在这一星期内，我问了很多朋友的意见，可见他们都不了解我，他们给的答复，很令我失望。

首先，当我告诉他们我的彷徨，他们会想到的一句话，只有“你读了两年理科你才讲要转，很不值得咧！”，“很浪费咯！”，“我成绩不好也不是一样还留在理科？做么要转？你上了两年的理科课程咧！” 。 拜托，我要的答案不是这些，值不值得，浪不浪费，都有我自己定夺，不是你三言两语的就把我要想的东西都给淹没了！我的能力我很清楚，我需要的不是这些有的没的，我要的，是能给我意见的朋友，能以我的成绩，以我的能力，以客观的思想来分析我的问题。

我不要那么肤浅的答案，我不要只是以成绩作为该不该转的评估工具，成绩对我来说只是个上大学用的工具，是个让父母以我为荣的工具，我真正要的不是一个很好很好的成绩，而是一个能带我走出黑暗的未来！

现在我要做的就是把最后一次的理科考好，作为纪念，哈哈！我会加油的！^^

Science and Art & Commerce

Lately, our skul held a counselling talk which was talking about choosing strems next year. For me, in the science class, is able to choose whether stay in science class or change to art class. Therefor these two days, I was thinking of this question, should I give up science? Should I go to art & commercial? Will I be regret? Conclude all in one, I'm a coward, I'm afraid , I've no confident that I'll make a right choice, I'm not adventurous enough. I know that , I always know that.

Actually, I know something very clearly. I know that I won't do something that related with science. But this not means that I should give up my science now, and I've decided, I'll do my best to catch up my science subjects . If next year really cannot , I'll go to art then.

Argh!!!!!!!!!! SOOOOooooo 烦 ！！！ Gambateh !!!

How 2 choose?

Ok, let's see. Believe tat Hin Hua students(can also be Ex-Hin Hua..)know tat whenever it reaches exam, frens r bzing to ask: " Hey, r u going out the last day of exam? Wanna go to play..." Somthin lik tat.
I've 3 frenz tat invites me to go to play ... 2 karaok,1 ice-skating. Sooo....crazy.... I dunno which 1 to choose, Haiz.....
Today lik a questioning day, on the evening , one of my girl fren asked me , if i fell in love wif on of my close boy-fren, of course I denied, coz I really dun! Such a funny joke, Haha!! Then, during the night in SPM, the boy-fren tat be said tat I lik, asked me some questions tat I found so similiar wif the question the girl-fren asked me tat evening, the similiar point is , they asked something do wif love relationship,tat kind of girlfren boyfren...haha!!
The guy asked me, whether i got think of having a boyfren, but I say not for now, coz I think tat, I can live so happily alone, no need anyone to accompany me^^
Hence, he also asked me tat if I got like someone before , and I said no, coz i can't sure tat is lik,of course for now no la! If not , I won't say tat I enjoy living alone right?
It's time for me to stop writing, I should go to bed now, if not, tomolo can't wake up, Haha XDXD

安静

最近在班上都很静，都没什么说话，虽然如此，我还是有跟大家开玩笑啊！

我并不是心情不好，或是有心事，只是不想说话，话说太多也无谓，说多错多（I mean 被炸得多）

那我不如不说，不是吗？

姐姐要回来了，有哪里，是有好吃的fruit cake卖呢？想要买给她吃咧~~~~~

测验测验测验！！！

哇！这个礼拜，测验多过鬼啊！ 我的老天，一天两个测验，不傻才怪。
可是，尽管如此，嘻嘻，我还是没什么读。因为，不想读。
想到最近的事情，好多感觉涌上心头，很复杂。我不知道自己在想什么，只知道，我又回到上半年的我了，我不要回到从前，我要往前看！！！！哈哈^^
期末考要到了，希望大家，加油吧！！